Subsistence

We’re six months into 2020.

Since January, I have been on a soulful roller coaster. The lessons I wanted to focus on this year were discipline, expression, and living in the now. I can say that I have been challenged within all of those areas.

The issues that arise from not expressing my feelings fully and not living in the moment come from a worried mind. Constantly overthinking is a learned behavior arising from childhood. I’m striving to change that behavior every day. This journey has led me to the investigation of the mind, body, and soul (specifically their relation to one another), through books mostly. I know that my overthinking comes from fear. The fear of potential danger, the fear of not having control, the fear of the unknown... the list goes on.

I have found that tending to my soul and creating my own personal energy is aiding me tremendously. Through the discovery of breathing techniques and meditation, I am very hopeful for a future with minimal anxiety-induced obstacles that I create within my own mind. This is where the discipline is integral to altering my overthinking patterns. I have to practice the methods that I aforementioned to actively make a difference.

On another note, I have also been exploring the relationships between numbers, sacred geomerty, music, and cosmology. These subjects, with the addition of even more such as: light, color, molecular chemistry, computer science...etc, are also very likely to be interdependent on one another as well. This research brings me clarity regarding the importance of the mind, body, & souls dependence on each other. I have always known that everything connects, yet examining the evidence for myself is giving me a sense of harmony and awareness with everything around me. This is an evolutionary year for me from the inside out and I'm appreciating the expansion...