Matters of the Heart

Who am I?

What is this life?

*I may ramble in this particular blog post*

The questions above are some that have crossed my mind this month.

I'm currently reading a book that is deepening my curiosity about this human experience.

In this shell, I can feel my heart pumping and the everlasting life that will fill my lungs until I perish.

All I can do is marvel, I can never show my true appreciation.

You can try through music, art, poetry, dance... the list goes on.

What's the threshold on gratitude?

What I mean to say is that I have been feeling so incredibly grateful this year.

At the same time, I'm coming to the realization that my plans for this year have been extremely taken off course. Being a usually optimistic person, I have had to bow down to my reality this month. It seems like a breaking point has come into view. My career plans are unwillingly put on hold, which in turn, has put a hold on the rest of my "life". I'm striving to breathe and feel every feeling, fully. In surrendering to myself in these moments, I find peace. Hopefully, I'm able to manage and redirect my energies into the things I want to accomplish in the now, for the future to come.

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I'm still trying to understand this mortal ordeal that has been thrusted upon me.

But that's just it, there's no need to understand, to quote the book I'm reading:

"And your being here and now is the truth, and your being here and now is the freedom, and your being here and now is the nirvana."

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I'm learning the importance of the heart and the energy that comes from it. I will be debuting my new collection on September 22, 2020 and would like to say that everything that I have created came from love. Love is such a wonderful energy to feel... It can be extremely meditative. I want to live in love.

I've had the pleasure of being around so many astounding souls this month and I hope they were able to feel my love for them. Also, whomsoever takes the time to read my blog, know that I appreciate it, totally.